As I was driving home from another doctors appointment this morning, a song on the radio sang this is my story this is my song....as I had just left an appointment where my veins did not want to cooperate with the nice lady with the needles and my arm was all bandaged as they searched for more blood to find out what is causing these aches and pains...I thought about all the years I thought about my plans for my stories and my songs...and now here in life I am living the actual story and song my life has become. I don't say this in a negative way at all, it is all our lives really, we start out with what we think life will be and as we live it God unfolds his story within our lives. The first 20 or so years I didn't see God as part of my story, I simply saw it as my own to do with what I pleased, with hard work I could do anything and yet with every accomplishment or disappointment it left me feeling discontent.
Life is always easier to see in hindsight. I can see how so many of my own plans would have not allowed me to have the life I have today. All lives have ups and downs good times and bad, but knowing Jesus has a plan for this world and that I have a part to play has been the only thing that keeps me content throughout. It has been a year for the ages....and I have noticed a pattern of discontent in the world...we want more time off but not too much time...we want large homes and all these things, but we do not want to be stuck inside with them regardless of cost....we want a family but we don't want so much time with family....we want peace but we want to be right....we want to be healthy but we still want the junk...we want to live out life carefree, but we want to live as long as we can.....we want to trust government, doctors, police...and yet we fear.....we want to truly love others, but we don't want to get too dirty.... I am guilty as the next..... It reminded me that this life is not My Story....it never was....It was always His Story....I am just lucky enough to realize I am a part of it. So if being a human pin cusion somedays is what He calls me too, or loving on my kids is on the agenda, or spending a day with my sore feet up watching tv with my high school boyfriend (no worries he became my husband..) is what he has me to do....then I am going to remember to be content.
We don't have to fret on our purpose, we have to be in relationship with the Author of the story and content with the fantastic news that we are a part of His incredible story....even if sometimes we aren't the Wonder Woman...cuz I mean she didn't get to wear sweatpants a lot and that had to be a bummer!
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