Who I am

The thing about moving to a new area is no one really knows you. For some moves its been great to start new, as sometimes its hard to shake who you were and who you are. However sometimes not knowing who you were can set a false idea of who you are. I don't ever want to seem fake or not genuine. I finally almost 32 years into my life am comfortable with my past, realize who I am has been a journey. I am not afraid to live, but I do have my fears! I didn't follow the perfect plan for life, but hearing and listening to others I have learned, most people haven't. There is always more below the surface. I have learned not to assume all is as it seems and that its OK! I don't have life figured out and I am not sure I want to. I won't measure up to some in my mind, but I am farther then I ever thought I could be. I am not sure measuring up would make me any happier anyway. My standard of measurement changes with the wind, as does my dreams. Its who I am. I am a big dreamer, a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister, a self conscious woman at times, a self confident woman at times.......... I feel as though I can take on the world, but yet some days it seems too much to leave the house. I am a grass is greener person, I can get extremely excited about life and then in day crash when I don't see it happening. I am impatient. I am a sucker for kids, especially those in need, but I am a strict mom. I step out in faith and then I doubt, I have a lot in common with Thomas. I love the Lord, but struggle with always leading a disciplined life. I am lucky to have a husband who accepts me who I am and fills in where I lack. I have thin skin and take too much personal. I want to be everything to everyone who needs it but I can get down when I can't. I am me, its who I am :)